family

You can definetly tell these two are related. She does not want to stay still any more and this is how she "sits" in the swing. Thankfully I did get them to sit together for a pretty cute shot, wouldn't you agree?

a crafty rainy day

today it rained off and on ALL day. which is normally quite unheard of in southern florida. it rains almost everyday just not the whole day. does that make sense? i have been trying to finish up a blanket for my new little niece and it has become nearly impossible to find a couple of hours at a time around here. so today i got bea down for a nap and i got micah started on a project making a cardboard picture frame for his friend. while i spent some time sewing. it was nice.

taking a break to check out the down pour.

bea woke up and had some cheerios. it was a lovely couple of hours and i got quite a bit finished on my project. happy day to you!

what color is thunder?

it is storming here today. micah was in his room and came running out when he heard some thunder. "i don't like thunder!" he said. "oh that's too bad, cause i love thunder." "you do?" he asked surprised. "i do buddy. i love storms"

outside we went to change the laundry before it started to pour. when we were inside the garage he asked me, "mommy, what color is thunder?"i told him that you can't see thunder you can only hear it with your ears. you can see lighting though. "well where does thunder live?" the questions continued getting more and more complex so we looked them up on line and found this picture. he said to me, "mommy, that is lighting and it is breaking the sky apart." hmmmm....

now my little scientist is coloring on the floor and he just asked me, "mommy what do volcanoes look like cause i am drawing fire!!!" always a new question for me to answer, or at least try.

wise no more

if where we store our wisdom truly is in our "wisdom teeth" then i am in big trouble. i got all of mine pulled out this morning. i talked myself up about it all week knowing it was coming, but when i walked down that hallway and got to the actual room tears welled up in my eyes and i started to panic... pretty sad huh? but i did. i will confess it and hope that you will love me anyway. i did. it was a full fledge panic attack. i even asked the dentist through my tears if those were blood splatters on the wall in front of the chair. he quickly LIED to me and told me "oh no that isn't blood". this is why i am so glad that matt insisted he drive me. i was trying to be all brave and go at it alone, but this morning he insisted and i really think it was a godsend cause i was scared out of my mind when push came to shove.

rationally i knew it would be fine and that the surgeon knew what he was doing, but my body took over and the flight instinct wanted desperately to kick in. matt and the doctor finally talked me into trying one tooth to see how it would go. they numbed me all up, put me on some lovely gas and pull, pull "preasure" and out it came. yeah, i felt it, not the pain but the wiggling of my head wasn't the most pleasant. i cried and they all left the room and matt talked to me about the next two. (luckily i did only have three nuggets of wisdom in my mouth) i did do the last two eventually and looking back on it i am glad that i just went ahead and got them all out at once.

i really don't understand why i was so afraid of this. i mean i have given birth to three babies, one of them totally natural for 36 hours. i passed a kidney stone the size of a popcorn kernel in january and yet i was really terrified to do this. i have been thinking it over and i think it is the anticipation that gets to me. knowing that i am willingly choosing to undergo pain. something that surgeon said to me when i was on the chair and gassed up but fighting him...was "honey you just have to surrender some control. trust me. i know what i am doing". why is it so hard for me to surrender control? i don't want to be like that...i want to be alittle more pliable and flexable and not quite so...well...controling!

so as my face returns to a normal size and i gain enough feeling to smile again at my little family i am left with that statement to think about for awhile. the dentist really tried to make it as painless as possible. i was numb from my mouth to my eyes. they were so numb i could hardly raise my eyelids after it was over. i think he may have given me alittle more gas than normal too. whatever works, i say. anyway, i'm off to change my gauze pads. now THAT is disgusting!

the bean finale

"Mommy! Beans!"
*pause, run to beans, start picking a few, looks at me*

"Do you think we could have them for lunch?"

Of course we will have you for lunch dear beans. Beans, fruits of our labor. Beans, that we have watched grow from a tiny kidney bean.

We will watch you boil away in hot water beans.

We will admire how green and beautiful you are, beans.

We will shout out, "Mommy, they have SEEDS in them!"

And finally we will try you, beans. And we will pronounce you "mmmm, yummy beans!"
But then we will ask for some oranges and a peanut butter sandwhich.
Seriously, did you all really expect a 3 1/2 year old to eat them even though he grew them?

*sigh*

Beans, it has been a great journey.

Mama's Day

alright all you mama's out there....

what did you get to do for mother's day?

beautiful

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Take Me Out to the Ballgame...

Tonight we all went to a Trinity baseball game. Tonight was the semi-finals. They won something like 12 or 14 to nothing... a little bit sad for the other team. It was really fun seeing all of the kids from Matt's classes and a few of the teachers and staff members. It was a gorgeous night to be at a baseball game. Beatrix was happy being held by Daddy most of the night and I kept an eye on Micah who brought his baseball glove and was in heaven playing catch with some of the other little kids. He met one little boy who was very happy to play catch with him the whole game. Micah was pretty proud of himself and kept telling me what a "great thrower" he is. He also kept telling me to "watch this mommy" every time he had the ball. It was a really fun evening and was great to get out as a family.

Micah's Self Portrait

This is Micah's first self-portrait. He drew it for me today before lunch. I asked him to tell me about it. He told me that he drew his eyes, "all three parts". I asked him what the middle part was. "That is the poopy mommy." "The poopy?" I said. "Yes, he said then the blue part and then the white part." "Oh you mean the pupil?" "Yes," he said, "the pupil". Then he told me that he drew his legs, but he didn't know how to draw his feet. And the line going across is the weather blowing the fireworks that he and daddy watched "last day". Last day is the term Micah uses for yesterday. Super cute.... I love the detail that he gave to his eyes. It was amazing to me, maybe just cause I am this kids mommy, but it was amazing that he drew the three parts of the eye. Anyway, thought I would share his portrait. enjoy

All Before 9:15

It's been a busy morning already!

A Dream

This morning Micah came into my room as usual after he woke up. We were snuggling and I asked him if he had had a good sleep. He told me that he had. I then asked him if he had had any dreams.

He said, "Just one Mommy".

"What was the dream pooh?"

"Well," he started, "I was laying in bed with you and Daddy and Beatrix and we were all snuggling. Then I started to get all smooshed up."

"All smooshed up? What do you mean?" I asked him.

"Like this Mommy", and he scrunched up his face and made his body into a little ball. "I was getting crushed and Beatrix was just looking at me. It made me kind of sad."

I was stunned and didn't know what to say. So, I just gave him a big hug. What I really wanted to do was cry. I couldn't believe the clarity of his dream and not only that I wondered if it truly was a window into his little world ??? Was he feeling smooshed out of our family? Did he feel like he was being replaced? I have been thinking about this short exchange all day today.

I have asked Micah before if he remembers our family before Beatrix came and he always looks at me confused and says, "What do you mean Mommy?" I know that mentally he doesn't remember life without Bea, but I am pretty sure that he does remember emotionally or even bodily what it was like when it was just us...

I don't want to be guilty of over thinking this subject, but I do think that it deserves some special thought. Perhaps I need to take a long look at how I am Mommy-ing him right now. Do I need to readjust my methods? Is this only natural? Should I be more intentional about setting aside special times for just the two of us?

Sometime last week I found myself really looking at Micah and thinking two thoughts. Number one - He is getting so big so fast. Number two - I remember thinking that I hadn't really seen Micah in six months. I felt like I had looked at him, but that I hadn't really seen him. Hmmm....something to think about at least. I am not feeling guilty or anything cause Beatrix has needed me, but I do think that there is something profound about this little one's dream last night. Don't you think it would be doing him a dis-service to not take it seriously?

Micah at 16 months

New Pool

I went to a really fun bridal shower today and while I was gone Micah and Matt went to Walmart and bought this great new pool. I asked Micah how they got it home and he said "we had to tie it to the roof mommy!" I laughed out loud! The image of the two of them driving home with a pool tied to the roof of our station wagon was so funny. He was swimming in it when I got home so I went inside and changed into my suit. Bea of course stripped down to nothing and we all took a family dip. Don't judge me! These pictures aren't the prettiest, but the memories out-weighed my looks!

Pins

I have been working on some sewing projects lately and have left my supplies out on our kitchen table. I have never seen Micah touch anything on that table. The other day I was on top of his bunk bed cleaning off the ceiling fan and this is what I found. Straight pins stuck into the bottom of his stuffed elephant's foot and they were stuck all over the mattress at the end of his bed. He was pretty proud of himself. I however was horrified with the idea of him getting a pin jammed into his knee or worse. ???

Look what I can do

Micah got these semi trucks from Grandma for his birthday last year and he decided to make them into car transporters by stacking the cars all by himself. (he is under the train table so Bea wouldn't get his cars)

Avacado

Bea is getting into food more and more. This week we tried avacado and she loved it!