The day has been scheduled....

We had our doctor's appointment this morning and we are all scheduled for an induction on Monday morning, October 20th. The day Mystery will be born and we will know if it is a he or she. I am feeling nervous, emotional, excited, scared and curious. It will be wonderful to see this little one and to know what has been growing inside of me all of these months. I am scared cause come on who really wants to go through the birth process. I am feeling nervous about Micah adjusting, all of us adjusting to another one in the house. But mostly I am feeling emotional cause it is really hard for me to even think in future tense when it comes to babies. I want to be positive but I also can't just be so naive to think that we are assured of a great outcome. There is still reality there and reality is that something could happen. I try not to dwell on this and it can very quickly turn me into an anxious mess. So I try to focus on the peace that the Lord promises me in the midst of it all. Lastly I am feeling curious. Curious as to what our little family of four is going to look like, be like, smell like (just kidding).

Micah is super excited and I also think that he is sensing that it is very close. He has been
particuarly affectionate to me over the last couple of days. He will come up to me, give me a big hug, tell me he loves me and then run off to whatever he was doing before. He is so sensitive! We have had excessive talks about what he can expect to happen when mommy and daddy go to the hospital to have Tractor (see 5 or 6 posts below). He has told me on a couple of occasions that he wishes he was a baby again and Matt and I try to acknowledge that yes the baby is going to get alot of attention, but there are sooo many things babies can't do that big boys can do. And how exciting to be a big brother cause you get to show him or her all of those things. We list them all and he feels better for awhile. It will just be interesting to watch this drama called the Harrison family unfold. How I imagine our love will deepen and grow and change. It is exciting....

Matt has so much to do between now and Monday. It is his end of the quarter and so he has about 50 papers to grade and college exams. He is feeling anxious also and will be glad when all is said and done and the baby is looking up at us in a room full of florescent lights. How crazy that this is our third child together and it still seems as new and unrehearsed as the first time. Please keep him in your prayers as he almost passed out last time I got an epidural. Plus it is hard for the husband I think cause they can't feel it all and so the labor process is really all about waiting for that one moment, THE moment. The moment it is tangible and there is a real live baby to look at, hold, bathe, name and love!

We covet your prayers and are so excited to call you with the good news some time Monday...?
Love the Harrison Three